school's in

still not really here

okay so i lied about the fact that i would actually update this site. all it is right now is a way of reading and commenting on some of my friends' blogs. but whatever. for now i needed a space to vent that wasnt facebook. so here goes:

for a number of years i had a major crush on one of my best friends and he's going out with this girl who i like in some ways but cant stand in general, and when she started going out with him it turned into frustration. anyways, there's this facebook app called 'likeness' where you take quizzes and it shows you how similar your answers are to other peoples. granted, this isn't much of a basis for that kind of association, but it is up there on the page and guess who is one person i'm apparently very similar too? my friend's girlfriend. so that kind of bugs me. obviously i was jealous of her because she got this friend of mine, but of the little things i cant stand about her? i cant help but wondering if we are so similar and if i'm exhibiting the very traits i dislike in her.

well that's just some thoughts for today. i'll try not to dwell on them.

hope summer's treating you well.

peace.

so

i broke my promise to keep blogging here but i've returned on a passing whim. perhaps now that sping is here and time seems avaliable i may yet return. our production of Guys and Dolls closed last week. it was a great success. I got really close to everyone in mainstage too, and i dont know if i want anyone to leave because what we have as an ensemble is so good. i went with a few of them to the PG production of GUys & dolls (whose idea was it for neighbouring, rival schools to do the same show?) and, well, we were better. and thats being kind. a few people in our group left at intermission. i laughed a lot. and cringed some. but i respect the work put in. and i have a higher appreciation for what we have in mainstage: an actual theatre company.

I've been feeling a lot better emotionally in the last few days. The shows over and the weather has turned nice. I really enjoy the sun. I dont remember the last time i went out just to play outdoors, and yet for the last few days thats what i've been doing: i walked, bicycled, and even practiced field hockey at the school field across the street. I had forgotten the sun. It makes so much difference.

I'm catching up in school as well. I really need to work now to make up for the stuff i wasnt doing, but at least i've been going to classes. I'm feeling pretty optimistic for the end of this year. As long as I buckle down and just do some honest work and maybe study a bit i should be okay. All the pressure about good grades is so dehabilitating. Theres the big "have to get to university" thing that i've been thinking about forever, but choose to not deal with. I'm going into theatre anyways so all i need is english. i still doubt it sometimes though, if this is what im supposed to do. but when i'm onstage doing a show, or when im up in the booth calling one, i just get such a thrill and i know that no matter how little money i make, it'll be worth it. but i also know im not workign hard enough to get there. i need my body to be like a machine, and i need to get back in shape. i'll make it a summer goal.

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I'm still going to keep up blogging on this site and others (if what I do can be called "keeping up") but wow, Facebook is great for keeping in touch with people I went to elementary school with or met during the summer. Reccommended.

More news of me later. I'm off to bed. Tired and sleepy!

updating....

- spent 3 days at the provincials in the rain and hail but came in 13th and won the fair play trophy

- rehersed a lot for The Crucible which will be in preformance in February

- found out my fibula slipped out of place and couldnt dance for a week and a half

- came back to school and attempted to catch up on everything

- spent lots of time in the theatre hanging lights, doing Players techs all in preperation for the show tomorrow!!!

- took minutes, brainstormed, planned, and copied for student council: upcoming events include Battle of the Bands (dec7th), Spirit Week (Dec 13-15) and Candygrams (onsale now).

- slept very little, talked on MSN too much

- got SNOW!!! *yay* and dug out tuques and mittens

- got MORE SNOW!! and had easy days at school

- and today MORE SNOW AS WE SPEAK and no sign of stopping

Today:
6:45 Wake Up
7:00 Leave for chiropracter
8:15 Chiro appointment
9:55 arrive at school
10:15 French class
11:30 lunch, talked with Ms. Webber a while, wished I was sleeping
12:35 should be in bio class but am finishing up homework that was due today

and then there's mainstage and then Players dress... eek. although i quite enjoy doing tech. =)

thats all for now, other then too say hopefully this site will get a makeover soon... really... i promise